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Sound; Squirrel Nut Zippers 2nd album.

Sight; I had to wear my hair down because I have a huge zit on the back of my neck, wish I had known that yesterday.

Taste; Oat's n' Honey granola bars..

May 4, 2000
$7000 son of a bitching dollars.

Today I was doing a little bit of data entry and I came across $7000.00 worth of names that a manager had bought for a mailing. No Chris, not you. I got incredibly angry. These are marketing campaigns and I understand that a significant amount of money will be spent to generate money. But this was extravagant, this was over the top.

This small part of the money spent on this campaign, not including the rest of the costs, was more than the company had given in raises to my entire department. This is wrong. This is very very wrong.

I wanted to stand up, walk into her office and throw it at her window. I wanted to write a self-righteous email to the entire company explaining just how wrong it was and walk out. Instead I kept doing my work and muttered under my breath. If it wasn't for jeans and flextime, I couldn't take this.

I don't believe that I made finals but I can't wait to see if I made the finals in the Diarist Awards. I won't lie. I want to. I really want to. Why though? Not for notoriety, that's not why. I think I just want validation. I will not be crushed if I don't, but I will be elated if I do.

I bought a fuzzy leopard steering wheel cover. I fell in love with it as soon as I saw it. I've got to get you a picture, it's the coolest thing on the face of this earth. It even made me clean out my car to make it look better because of the new addition. The cover and my Virgin of Guadeloupe air freshener makes me an honorary tacky Chicano. Please send oversensitive hatemail here.

Adam and I are great, no arguing, nothing like it was. I am still doing well about the miscarriage. The only thing bothering me is how I would like to have looked up in that dark sonogram room and seen a kicking and waving 10 week old fetus. I could have miscarried after that and been fine. I just would've liked to have seen a kid make it a little ways first. Some would think that it would be easier the other way around. Nope.

Sissyfight crashed this morning and I thought I had lost my sissy and all of my points. Near 2 they finally got everything back up. I wonder if it was the LOVE virus. That happened to knock out our email at work for over three hours. I never opened it, but 50 other people did. Did you?

I'm ashamed of myself, but I'll be there to see Mission Impossible 2 when it opens. I loathe Tom Cruise, but it looks very good. I'm such a sheep.

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