February 9, 2000
And they didn't even kiss me first.

Chart Key - Don't Really Expect Mathematics From Me After Hork Hours

Positive Negative

Alright, we start high on the positive side, at 5 I got up late, but made it to work on time. My new site meter was kicking ass and taking names. I was in comfortable clothes and when no one was looking, I took my shoes off at work.

At the same time, we're all the way down at .75 I woke up this morning to discover my body had begun to slough without my permission.

However, my sheets remained unstained, and we're back up to 3 Didn't have to waste time changing out the bedclothes.

Somewhere near 9:30 a co-worker informs me of a cap on our raise amount, and we're down to 1.5 The amount that the 4% raise would get me wouldn't cover the cost of a monthly utility bill.

I stayed at 1.5 for quite awhile. Realizing that I can't live on this anymore, just squeezing by.

I realize that this is the chance to get out while I'm ahead, and I'm hovering at 3.5 Guaranteed increase in income of 15% as soon as go back to my agency. I'm such hot shit.

I realize I finished writing my manual, and I won't even have to train another halfwit and I'm pushing 4 But I just knew they'd end up paying my replacement more than me, and then I remembered my boss telling me that I wasn't his first choice in the beginning of all this, so even though I'm happy, it's twinged with anger.

I'm suddenly terrified at how my life will be changing very soon, plunging to .25 I know that this is a positive thing, but the feeling upsets my equilibrium.

I decide to escape my reality and Blu to the park, the sun recharging me to just beneath 5 Just over 60 degees, a happy dog (that lives at my father's, okay it's his dog, but it was mine for 8 years too,) a folk singer, a jolly fat jogger, good air, exercise, attractive young men smiling at me. I perfectly lovely way to end the day. Also, I didn't have to wait long for Adam to come home, and we decided to order Chico & Chang, a mexican and chinese delivery place, plus we were given a small gift that has delightedly lifted my spirits. That's reminds me, I have to light some incense in case we have company tonight.

Two of the best and worst ways for my days to come to it's end. So I find myself in a light mood and quick to smile, but faster to snap at anything that catches me wrong. It's an odd mixture, poor Adam just goes with it. Bless the man.

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