Posted by [angela] on Sat Sep 2 08:36:31 2000: IP Address: 205.188.198.164
yeah the subject explains exactly as i am feeling but now i am going to sleep.. if you ignore the problem it will just go away.
tom wants his posts taken down..
tom wants attention but doesnt want to be seen >:)
robert will be in town starting sunday.. robert will want to go downtown.. i am supposing it would be nice of me to go with, even though this does mean getting out of the house.. its just not at fun anymore with no motivation i know i will be seeing the same tourists i saw there last week the same guys fucking in the door way the same gutter fucks sitting by the lake but what can i say this is my home.
i guess i can look forward to the day i dont have even one panic attack when i go out.. or that day that i dont wake up with an incredible head ache.. the only thing preventing me from looking forward to that is the realization that this may never occur and i will be confined in my own room staring at the walls peeking out now and again but never quite curious to take one step past my door way.
even though this is a board for bitching i have no place to do so .. so i am off to attempt sleeping another night and hoping to wake up with something to look forward to.
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