these aren't in any sort of order, and there may be some words that are repeated or misspelled. these are accidents, please disregard.
* kevin, john, devin and faron.
* double stick tape
* daria and my so called life (an i the only one that remembers those old shows?)
* the new jessica
* sam, and...
* -his cute little butt
* -his voice.(oh -god-, yes... mmhmm)
* -his fluffy hair
* -his hands
* -that he always know just what to say
* -his smile
* -his sensitivity
* -that he cares enough to be jealous of other men i have around, even though he -knows- that he is my favorite.
* -all the things i've learned from him
* -the way he looks at me, even when i'm doing nothing at all.
* -his... well, if i continue with this sublist it will go on forever *blush* i should stop.
* ~the promise of things to be
* being outdoors at night
* charleston, but not driving there
* the trestle in conway
* wandering online
* bed bath and beyond
* being alone
* fancy hotels
* key lime chips
* msn messenger
* the way e'an shows emphasis when he types: like /this/.
* escalators
* buttons and pins
* feathers
* my melo
* tshirts with things written on
* dancing
* the combination of smoky pink and black
* the chemist
* sexy panties
* comfortable panties
* linen sheets
* a good argument
* brookgreen gardens
* swimming naked at three am with people i love
* my microphone
* my webcam
* being in lust with someone i know i'll never catch
* teasing
* being teased, sometimes
* being chased
* scrabble
* my sandbox soldier
* eyeliner, in violent shades
* when adam touches me
* the almost-awake dreaming
* geometry
* tax-time (woohoo!)
* bunnywith
* the girl in my public speaking class that stretches so seductively that i want to reach out and touch her bare sides
* oxycontin
* amanda, and the way she knows just how to make everything better
* amanda's bald head
* getting mail from far-away strangers
* mittens
* cold water
* the look of a fresh, garden grown tomato
* big, sweet oranges
* carrabba's
* fruit-on-the-bottom yogurt
* being held by someone much taller than me
* adam's hands
* my ankles
* e'an, sometimes.. but not lately
* david duke
* daydreams of luxury
* dangly earrings
* irridecent nail polish
* real-life cowboys
* the way adam looks at my ass as i get dressed
* erotic fiction
* harry potter
* my italian's voice
* my italian
* middle-of-the-day sex
* drugged sleep
* holiday baking
* my son's vocabulary
* tina marie, even though she is very strange
* knitting
* pregnant sarah
* jenni-bunni
* kitty and aj
* first conversations online
* dreaming of friends
* cheap bic pens
* bravado nursing bras
* midol. (adam loves it too)
* spring water
* nurse gail, at grand strand hospital
* pumpkin spice coffee
* my baby's pediatrician
* the epidural man
* nuk pacifiers
* jamie's apartment
* breastfeeding
* deborah brott
* my mom's fancy dishes
* johnny
* the waccamaw elementary playground
* my beautiful newborn baby
* the people i work with
* shopping for other people
* food stamps
* white castle bitty burgers
* publix grocery stores
* central park food
* school
* november
* october
* driving early in the morning
* my mom
* being pregnant
* pirouette entertaining cookies
* dimes
* quarters
* white gold
* cornstarch
* book - "Kinky Crafts" - 99 do-it-yourself s/m toys.
* cowboys
* the pepperidge farm outlet
* the dollar store
* feathery things
* polar bears
* penguins/squirrels
* playstation 2
* cigarettes
* tuesdays, because adam is off work
* that "baking soda and peroxide" clean feeling
* adam's car, and everything that happened there
* my piercings
* the smell of my fingertips right now
* fresh blueberries, strawberries... any fruit. *mmmmm*
* my fancy schmancy TI-83 graphing calculator
* dirty stories
* the sony mavica digital camera
* school field trips, to anywhere, anytime
* the book of fred
* the spqbol
* animated music videos
* gorillaz
* sarah and jamie
* amanda's kid
* oh, god
* the idea of twinkie pie
* my grampa
* the librarian guy at MBHS
* orange crush lollipops
* the deer and the jellybeans
* the girl on the bus with the beautiful eyes
* ana voog
* IV morphine, it burns, but it feels oh so good too
* fluffing 13-17 year old boys
* the "eat mor chikin" cows
* erotica by anne rice
* heavy drapes
* sunshine nakedness
* myself
* netscape composer
* hot dog pro 5.5
* camel menthols
* my mom
* travis and his smoky smell
* ceiling posters a the gynecologist’s office
* geometry
* metal lunchboxes
* red eyeliner
* the sweet taste of cigarette smoke after a mouthful of mint listerine
* burger king food
* road trips
* happy meal boxes
* chik-fil-a
* cheesecake
* paper dolls
* treehouses
* silver thread
* itallians
* cashmere
* pins and buttons
* green m&ms
* good-smelling lotion
* danger pudding
* dogma
* jay and silent bob
* smooth, shaved men
* mud puddles
* day mud
* hating things. *sigh* i love to hate
* ana voog
* billy corgan
* adam spatuzza
* the beatle's yellow submarine
* eyes
* stars
* doors
* bubble candy
* the number nineteen
* edible leggos
* jelly belly jellybeans
* stamps, but only pretty ones
* tiffany fisher
* badtz maru
* tony, from the house on 20th
* the shock of sunlight after a rave
* mr. Stafford
* CCH
* broken things
* Maxim Magazine
* high school whores
* vanilla feilds
* bottled water
* chicken in a bizkit
* coldplay
* goth matt.
* trace, in my gym class.
* blinks
* binkies
* tetris - the game
* atari
* AK1200
* flavored creamer
* the hole
* my "toy"
* ravers who have been so for more than 2 years... there new teenybopper ravers piss me off
* the beautiful eyes belonging to the girl on the bus
* playstation 2, but only because it has a dvd player, and I love that
* dvds
* adam's son
* little boys
* moonbeams
* freaks and goths
* open-minded people
* people with eyes so dark they are black
* having sex
* the female body
* bright red hair
* my few good friends
* The Boulevard
* New Orleans
* Crucilla and her sparkle doc martin's
* my room
* hitch-hiking
* winter nights, and gray winter skies
* spiders
* my friends from j. reuben long
* getting carded, now that i finally am legal
* peanut butter M&M's
* that "guy" smell
* long coats
* cheap quarter-machine jewelry
* people who are nice to me
* music
* the ocean at night
* singing, though i am not terribly good at it.
* writing poems and songs
* long hippie dresses
* bell-bottoms
* the smell of canvas, and smoke
* tie-dye
* fishnet sleeves, and torn black or red tights
* stripey socks, tights, whatever
* charleston, and market street there downtown
* colombia, but not if i'm in trouble
* being true to myself
* patchouli
* flowers
* the 99 cent "black orchid" lipstick at the drugstore
* sparkly plastic things
* tattoos
* shopping (at music and thrift stores, but not malls really)
* "shopping" (friends, you know what this means ;)
* watching people
* seeing other people really angry, or desperate, or happy. i love any extreme emotion
* night
* though the looking glass and alice's adventures in wonderland by Lewis Carroll
* the crescent moon
* the cheshire cat
* a full moon
* shooting stars
* walking around outside at night
* silver jewelry
* bubbles
* pills
* Hello Kitty
* Herbal Essences shampoo and conditioner - the ones in the greenish bottles cause they smell the best
* baths
* showers
* water
* being in trouble and having everyone stare at you while you try hard not to laugh
* being at school after everyone is gone
* band t-shirts
* lighting fires
* going for walks, alone or with friends
* her 2 layers of shoelaces...purple through the eyes, green on the hooks, reverse on the other.
* the feeling i get when i almost get caught
* the i-can't-believe-she-is-doing-that look that i get from the prepulars
* my window
* sunglasses
* cute underwear
* no underwear
* dolls, dirty and with no hair
* kittens
* the feeling of sand between my toes on the beach, at night when it is cold
* the way his hands are always cold
* mushrooms
* dragons, fairies, and other beautiful things with wings
* dying my hair (usually purple)
* painting my nails with markers and clear glitter nailpolish
* mood lipstick
* flavored lip gloss
* painting barbies and clipping and dying their hair (purple mohawk!!!)
* courtney love, before she became a sellout.
* tiaras
* the numb surface feeling you get after you shave your legs
* trippy patterned stuff
* girls who wear boots with dresses
* Marilyn Monroe
* the moon trip
* tea (esp. orange spice)
* writing, and receiving, letters * tori amos
* Eeore
* tigger
* cherry or strawberry carbonated mineral water
* ice water in a baby bottle
* sprite
* coffee water patterns
* Ditch Kitty Records
* my grunge-puppys
* daydreaming
* night dreaming
* incense
* candles
* psychodelic stuff
* bright or strange-colored notebook paper
* 4-leafed clovers
* daisy chain tiaras
* when people's eyes look red in pictures
* february 20th
* waterbeds
* using kool-aid as hair dye, cause it smells and tastes so good
* comfy beds (with lots of blankets and pillows)
* the wind blowing through my hair in the summer at night
* things that aren't real
* the way broken glass looks
* fairies
* the sound of a knife being sharpened
* Ouija boards
* being sarcastic
* using big words to make myself sound smart
* Janeane Garofalo
* making these lists
* comfortable clothes
* sleeping naked
* Strawberry Shortcake
* Rainbow Brite
* Smurfs
* Care Bears
* treasure trolls
* drawing stars on everything
* pussy
* daria
* satire
* southpark (sometimes)
* Scooby Doo
* The "Mystery Machine" van
* eyes
* friday nights and saturday mornings
* Greenteatherapy Scent, from the Healing Garden
* blacklights
* my many un-birthdays
* being twitterpated
* acrylic paint
* "Sid and Nancy"
* everything by cheech and chong
* lost highway
* Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
* The Wizard of Oz
* drew barrymore
* A Clockwork Orange - the book and the movie
* The Crow
* Brandon Lee
* cheap, low-budget horror films
* cookie dough
* oranges
* dakarra
* cloves
* clear purple floppy disks
* yellow eyes
* blue hair
* pink hair, etc.
* guys with long hair
* blue eyes
* violet eyes
* green eyes
* animal eyes
* babies (i want several, but just not anytime soon)
* toys
* Legos
* old toys
* toddlers
* warm summer rain
* thunder storms with lightning
* the color pink
* black
* rainbows
* authentic hippie clothes and jewelry
* cardigans
* kiddie accessories
* the new "glamrock" manson
* the smashing pumpkins
* billy corgan
* nirvana
* deftones
* KMFDM
* kurt, frances, and courtney
* icp
* cypress hill
* Nine Inch Nails
* various local bands
* chick bands
* Veruca Salt
* some heavy metal
* that godsmack song
* hole
* loud music in a small car
* black twine
* sleeping on ceramic tile or smooth cement
* the raggy tails at the cuffs of my favourite jeans
* spelling "favorite" and "color" with a u so it is "favourite" "colour"
* the way my best friend says "poem" like it is "poyme"
* rivers
* the sound of rain on a cheap tin roof
* old, abandoned houses
* breaking the law, and not getting caught
* gay pride
* the mountains
* metal slinkys
* rare cds
* Celtic silver rings
* candy bracelets and necklaces
* piano music
* acoustic guitars and people talking
* electric guitars and people screaming
* pisces
* apathy
* water guns
* being so pale
* my family
* cherubic mouths
* high ceilings
* jessey's blacklight room and his "trip box"
* kittens that are black, white or orange
* calico cats
* improv
* traveling alone
* being touched
* my art class
* his hands and his naturally black hair
* regulation combat boots
* wearing mis-matched or colorful socks
* hemp stuff
* heavy chains
* minty or toothpicks
* when he let me paint his nails
* when he let me dye his hair
* spiked or studded leather collars, dogs or people
* Prozac, the true miracle drug
* kiddie barrettes
* waterslides
* hot tubs
* koalas and kangaroos
* hanging out under a bridge at night
* glow-in-the-dark things (i've got those stars you stick on your ceiling all over my room)
* my shoelaces
* ice
* my many books
* Halloween
* being female
* going on trips
* reading
* shady grass
* climbable trees
* ring pops
* vegetables
* jell-o
* baby food (i like it, OK?)
* cherries and strawberries
* blondie brownies
* spaghetti
* the ceaser salad that my friend's mom made
* lollipops
* macaroni and cheese
* the smell of oranges
* ice
* caffeine
* blueberry or strawberry muffins
* the smell of french vanilla coffee
* Rice Crispy squares
* Slurpies
* white freezies (Why doesn't Mr. Freeze make them anymore?)
* strawberry milkshakes, but not from a fast-food place
* Worther's butterscotch candies
* gum, Ice Breakers blue, or the bright green minty stuff
* Pixie Stix
* Dr. Pepper
* kool-aid and sugar, mixed. 1 packet per cup of sugar...make it, it is yummy
* Froot Loops without milk
* biting my fingernails
* spray painting
* guys in dresses and nailpolish and eyeliner and stuff
* feeling loved
* being confident
* having a MESSY room
* my friend's handwriting, all of them
* burning incense, especially patchouli (my mom hates it; it keeps her away from me and my room)
* not being shy
* attention
* being there.
* driving
* moshing
* baby clothes
* dirt
* laughing
* telling jokes
* hearing jokes
* listening to people
* helping people
* psychology
* sleeping in
* Gizmo, off "Gremlins"
* my baby pictures
* he still has a couple baby teeth... cute.
* people younger than i
* the smell of gardenias
* baby powder
* necklaces
* looking down from the balcony of a skyscraper
* anne rice, sometimes
* stephen king, sometimes
* george carlin
* being far away from people i know
* crowds
* feeling lost in crowds
* Dr. Suess
* Mystery Science Theater 3000
* Carrie
* The Shining
* spiderwebs
* 1996
* 1997
* august first
* people who are open about their feelings
* shiny metal
* zelda
* what it felt like to be thirteen
* freedom
* watching him play guitar.... he looks so sexy when he plays
* warm leather trenchcoats, and my friends who let me wear thiers
* earmuffs
* frolicing
* blue eyeliner
* blue lipstick
* purple lipstick
* black lipstick
* silver lipstick
* white lipstick
* green lipstick, etc.
* fireworks
* trees
* catapillars
* europe
* rome
* jungle gyms
* swings
* slides
* teeter-totters
* springs
* sparkly shoes
* warm hay
* when snow sticks to trees and windows in winter and looks really pretty
* pound kitties
* cities
* band patches
* chicken salad
* balloons
* helium
* explosions
* implosions
* standing up for what i believe in
* cities at night
* lithium, the element and the song
* jane lane
* trent reznor
* the mental hospitals
* clouds at night
* graffiti
* coed sleepovers
* Buddhism
* making collages, like i have on my walls, notebooks, and the ceiling of my room
* parties
* leaves
* nature shows
* being loud, causing a scene
* making a fool of myself
* those plastic balls like you play in at Chuck E. Cheese
* getting married someday
* elevators
* Lite Brites
* thick, clear tape
* duct tape
* going through old "junk"
* labeling people, literally, with a sharpie and masking tape
* oxymorons
* double negatives
* Play-Doh
* Silly Putty
* playing with his hair
* the circus
* the school playground at night, but not alone
* cafes
* blowing bubbles
* blowing bubbles while smoking, exhaling through the bubble thingy so that its filles with smoke.
* watching children argue
* people who are willing to give me a ride home at 3 in the morning
* giving presents
* darkness
* twins
* staring at a word or phrase for so long that it loses all meaning and becomes just shapes on paper
* getting dressed in warm clothes that just came out of the dryer
* fairy tales
* rolling around in grass
* catching water beetles and critters like that
* heavy, steel-toed black leather boots
* crayons
* scented markers
* scented crayons
* getting lost in my own little world
* flying kites
* movies that can make me cry
* writing out my thoughts
* tree frogs
* tall, skinny girls
* anarchy
* spirals
* 7-eleven
* the smell of pumpkins
* the "heroin chic" look
* the word "nifty"
* my 56k modem
* meeting people on the internet
* Smart people, but not smartness based on school and such, but based on how they think and their views on life.
* scratch and sniff stickers
* empathy
* honey
* finding money
* spending money
* shooting pool
* Kalidescopes
* toy stores
* dresses
* velvet
* baby shampoo
* my silver and black long-sleeved leopard gauzy shirt
* screwing with people's minds (it's fun to piss off some pople who try to piss you off by not acting pissed off when they expect you to be).... uh, yeah.... that makes sense, right?
* my torn jeans
* my ballchain necklace
* my marilyn manson shirts, that my mom hates
* big words
* the number three
* learning new things
* secrets
* different cultures
* being scared
* orange chapstick
* Sesame Street
* guns
* school
* singing/dancing in the rain
* screaming at a speeding train
* dancing in the moonlight
* the feeling of freedom you get from being alone and far away from everyone and everything
* being right
* manipulating people
* being lost
* Valium
* the new edition of Our Bodies, Ourselves
* Midwives
* new people
* chasing new whores
* pick-your-own-adventure books
* those clear and sparkly floppy discs that the preps have.