I was thirteen, I'd been out of Primary School for a year. It was in
the back of a panel van, I hadn't even got my period yet. I didn't even know
where my hole was. I thought there was only one hole for pissing and for
having sex.
I tried to find out about it at school that day. I couldn't ask Sue
because she knew just as much about it as I did. I asked Tracy and Cheryl
and the gang. I hadn't learnt that girls don't talk about doing it. "What
am I supposed to do?"
I counted the hours to my 'intitiation'. 8, 7, 6 hours to go, I'm packing
shit.
There were six of us in the panel van. I sat in the front calmly
smoking a cigarette. Suppressed screams of agony as Sue lost her virginity
to Danny in the back. And that's the
way it goes for girls. Every car in
the parking lot was doing it: rocking up and down
to the Panel Van Bop.
And now it was my turn. I couldn't say no. Bruce had picked me
out of all the girls. Bruce was the top guy in the gang
- even better than Darren Peters. He was the eldest. He
had a car, a job, money and the biggest prick. He
parted the purple curtains his mother had made for him,
and pulled me over the seat. We undressed in silence, pulling
off our jumpers and straight-legged Levi's. We stretched out on the pink
mattress and the windows began to fog.
I produced a jar of Vaseline he'd asked me to bring. Things got mighty
slippery, but it still hurt. I thought I was going to pass out.
He grunted and pushed harder, I clutched onto his hips...
I don't remember what happened next. We were putting on our clothes,
strapping myself into a bra that was holding up air. I couldn't
find my underpants. I fumbled around and put everthing on inside
out. We climbed into the front as Tim and ? got in the back.
And that was the initiation in the Green Hills gang. That was the way every
girl in the gang lost her virginity. The boys had to be good surfers,
and the girls had to be good screws. Well, at least I was
doing something on Saturday night!